I am quite sad that we have to spend times or even years away from each other, work our asses off nth hours a day, and have sleepless nights missing each other. Just the thought makes me so afraid because we might not grow together and things would end... waaaaaaaahh... do not want to hear that "e" word again! I have full confidence on Geck's love for me and I know he is not capable of being unfaithful PERIOD!

I am up to something overseas. There is a big possibility that Geck would not be with me and would also be flying somewhere else. I hope we could make it this year. I hope nothing would change. I hope we could have our own family when we get back. I hope we get back at the same time..alone..to find comfort in each other's arms...

I just realized I wasted two long years. I have not saved enough money during my kampanerang kuba stint! Damn!

Now the prestige is gone and I am going to exhange that with money. Two things I wish I have.

When you have prestige, that maybe selfish. Plus the fact that you should be in the right place with prestige to have both. And YES that was a great mistake! Kung meron ngang prestige, wala ka namang pera..OLATS!! Kung may pera sa basura, dun lang sa inalisan kong basurahan walang pera! puro "plastic" pa!

Hindi nga cguro maganda job title ko pag nag-abroad ako pero alam ko PINAPAGPAGURAN ko bawat sentimo na kikitain ko. Hindi ako mahihiya sa ibang taong inapakan at inagawan ko at higit sa lahat sa sarili ko! Pagbalik ko dito, kung marami na akong pera...baka mas mayaman pa ako sa may magagandang job titles dito sa Pilipinas..Sana nga! Kaya ko un, alam ko! (At mas maganda pa rin ako sa knilang lahat... Hindi job titles din ang magbibigay syo ng respeto ng ibang tao, hindi din ganda..Pero kung panget ka na,bastusin ka pa, naisip mo n ba kung tao ka? wahahahaha)

Then we will build our home where we could be just ourselves...with love for each other and joy in our hearts... this is the good life!